Tried to scrub the crazynastyfat off my body in the shower. Didn't work.
You know you're sick when you're excited because you bought laxatives and your safe foods and you have diet pills.
And you don't care that you're sick.
Please don't sit here and tell me I'm wrong, I need to get better. I'm not ready.
I planned and measured out the exact amount I was going to eat today, and I stuck with it. So why, when I've been good and had few calories, am I still so guilty after a dinner of a pear and a half a cup of cottage cheese?
I want to purge.
But not today.
My doctor prescribed me abilify, and I read people gain tons of weight on it. I'm so scared. I don't know if I'm gonna actually take it or not :(